Weight Loss Blog #1? I Guess LOL

Hey whats up everyone? I'm Benny 26 from upstate New York. I've made a decision that I don't want to be this way anymore. I want to redefine my life especially my eating and exercise. At this moment, my eating habits aren't terrible but arent great either. One day I can have an okay day and the next I can be pouring a bag of reeses pieces into a thing of ice cream. So it totally fluxuates from day to day. The way I'm feeling does fit into the equation but I love to eat regardless. It makes me feel good to be stuffed. I would be very happy in a place like Italy where they have multiple courses. LOLZ!
I was 250 in December when I stopped boxing for different reasons. Well I sparred for the first time and did terrible got popped in the face like 25 times and for some apparent reason thought this wouldn't be a good career for me. So that was a failure to me cause I feel like i let my coach down who had high hopes for me. And when someone like Billy "The Kid" Costello who has won the world championship like two times says they have high hopes for you and you let them down you tend to get really depressed. Then I stopped going and a few times I tried to go back but it wasn't the same. It had lost its spark and energy. So with stopping such a workout 6 days a week my physical activities dwindled as well. And now 7 months later im right back at where i began at 279.6.
I go to the gym on monday but mostly play basketball which makes me feel good cause there was a day years ago where I used to play everyday rain snow shine everyday for a few hours and i was on the college bball team best shape of my life. Honestly it was in 2001, nine years ago but it seems like lifetimes ago. I go from being able to run for days to losing my breathe walking up stairs.
What a life!